Just some background to my question, I’m not sure if my story fits but here goes. I lost my virginity at 17 and kept that partner until I was 19(I’m now turning 20 in the summer). I frequently went to the doctor because of other problems that existed before I started having sex. I tested clean every time.
I then moved on to my second partner who was a friend first. After having sex with him a couple times I stopped self lubricating so to the doctors I went, to find out he gave me genital herpes AND hpv. Obviously I was crushed and devastated. I attempted suicide days after my diagnosis and again about a month later. I guess my question is how do I find my will to live again? I just don’t see the future I so desperately want with the diseases I’ll have for the rest of my life. Thanks in advance.